To Jon and Janet Brown,
Fifteen years ago today I was holding a sick baby who I had no clue was sick. It’s an odd place to live in, one that you think is crystal clear with the visions of gold pastures abound, but underneath the surface is gray, dark, and bleaker than bleak.
Fifteen years ago, I held Caleb Scott in my arms as I sang him to sleep. His body was waging a war deep within that I didn’t know anything of. Decade plus Five ago you must know what I’m talking about. Holding God’s calling for you in the breast of your soul, yet terrified that you may not be good enough.
Fifteen years ago I had a sandy blonde haired boy who knew nothing more than sacrifice. Tender age of two and all I knew of him was of protection for me, of life, of sanctity. Fifteen years ago, in his world, Cameron Wesley Otis looked onward with blue eyes of steel and majesty
Fifteen years ago, I walked away.
Without a second thought.
Yet then, after years in oblivion, dessert and famine aboud, I fell to my knees. Not because of my last breath or famine…yet in the very whisper of an essence of grace.
The Essence of Grace has the ability to:
Bring us to places we could have never foreseen.
Takes us further than any beauty we can conjure.
And gives us gifts that we are left in awe of…
Pastor Jon and Janet Brown,
In this essence of my life, you are a whisper of grace that God has placed in my life at this time and in this moment.
Thank you for your service, for the fifteen years of ministry to what my mind can see the magnitude of.
Thank you for being…
The lives of our youth…
In the Fortitude of God and Grace.
~Fifteen years ago, I had no idea of a Trasen Alan. Who is a loving, sweet, smart, funny eight year old who will eventually come into your hearts.
~Fifteen years ago, the thought of a daughter, my delight, and heart’s desire was next to impossible. Yet Lilia Opal Lorraine comes crashing into your lives in less than a decade!
Your service is forever imprinted in our hearts as parents, but more so in the souls of our children who we have trusted you with…For a decade plus five and into the next 15.